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Some of my most cherished memories are of when people I love are really worried about me.

There was the time after I got my wisdom teeth removed and I was so high on painkillers when I was walking back to the room when I almost literally fainted, my dad *gasped* and yelled my name, running over to me to keep me from falling over completely.

Then there was the time I fell over the dog gate with a bag full of our glassware. I fell so hard and so loudly (the glass didn't shatter but it did make a terrific amount of noise) that I just lay there for a few seconds dumbfounded and also waiting for the reaction. Then my dad came over and I managed to croak out an "I'm okay" to his worry. When we got to the car he asked me if I had lost consciousness and if I'd hit my head because he'd heard me fall and when he ran over to the gate all he saw was me lying there, still, on my back with my legs twisted so he thought I might have lost consciousness.

The most recent 'worry', was when I was staying over at my friend's apartment last weekend. We stayed up pretty late, and I read a bit of fanfic before I went to bed that night. My friend gets up really early because they go to work at four, and you don't break that habit over the weekend even though they did sleep 'in' until 12:00pm. *I* slept in until 3:00pm looool. They told me this cute story about being worried about my sleeping in so late until they heard me snore a little and that relieved them.

It makes me feel warm when people worry because it's one of the 'proofs' of caring. I know that it's unhealthy to feel so good about being in danger or being hurt because of the reactions of people, but to be honest, I'm nowhere near getting myself in those situations on purpose so that's okay. but it's still worrying. I don't even want to be tempted in that direction. *sigh*

And after all that I get to say this: Don't worry. I'm okay. This is just one of those things I wanted to talk about a little.

Date: 2017-01-31 04:49 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] enemyofperfect
Aww, I'm glad you talked about it.

Also, I have to ask: does this apply long distance, too? Because I really, really didn't want you to feel bad, but during that one period recently when you weren't even posting to tumblr... ^_^;

Date: 2017-01-31 06:46 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] enemyofperfect
Well I guess if it comes up in the future I'll just say "hey, I'm really worried about you, friend!" *hugs tight* (But for the record, if you ever want to shortcut the process and just ask "hey, could I get a reminder that you care and stuff?" That would be very okay too. :)

OMG though, I'm glad you've made it far enough out of the abyss to look forward to things. And go language classes!

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