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Jul. 2nd, 2012 01:07 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I close my eyes
my tongue shifts in my mouth
awkward
The music plays
soft, rhythmic
sad
I close my eyes
my heart shifts in my chest
I feel like I'm going to die
my heart beats in my shoulder
pain every time I move
painkillers making my
head woozy
my memory faint
profound feeling,
depression sinking into me
phlegm in the back of my throat
I want to cry,
but have not the energy
to summon up the effort
I smile, slowly,
the song is ending
time for sleep
the cessation of pain
the numbness
endless feeling of dreams
[This is how I feel when I'm depressed and/or stoned on painkillers. This time, it's a little bit of both. One in reaction to the other, depression caused by pain. Ugh...]
This is the song:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r6AZeCiqurM&feature=BFa&list=PL01BFCD914DA0B37C