catharsis_logs | Sad...and happy. Strange emotions.

Samantha called to borrow some money, just like a couple dollars which isn't all that big a deal. I gave her my dad's info first, but they didn't get the password right, which was partially a relief because my dad didn't want his info to be put out to them in the first place, but I had to submit my own info. It didn't work either, because I stupidly forgot the last number in my password. Now I feel like an idiot.

She says that she'll call later tonight after the reception in which her friend gets married. I hope she didn't lie to me. Intentionally or not. Sometimes she just forgets to call, and she's had a very busy week (apparently) so I don't blame her.

I wish I could invite her to Mama Fran's house but Fran has a big rowdy dog and that wouldn't be safe for a little baby like Noah, though Samantha tells me he's gotten bigger. He's apparently 'talking' a lot more too, and I actually got to hear him over the phone. He's so cute.

I'm really feeling the saudade today. That's a word that doesn't exist in the English language. It means: The feeling one gets when realizing something one once had is lost and can never be had again.

Yeah, I think the word and description explain itself... It's pretty much what kicked me in the stomach with a very fast emotional grenade. It healed almost instantly, but for a moment my world tilted on its axis and I felt lost.

Anyway. Can't wait to talk to her tonight and we might be going to go see the Hunger Games at midnight tonight if I'm up for it.