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catharsis_logs It shows where I am emotionally (and on a sensory level: I'm overloaded) that even if I helped Emergency Services into my dorm and up the elevator that all I can think of is the 'mistake' I might have made once they were on the floor they needed to be by just leaving after they were down the hall. I rationalized it is "I don't wanna snoop" but then when I was down the block I realized that they might have needed help getting out of the building, because the elevator button on that floor apparently doesn't light up, or that they stand there waiting for the elevator when they need to save someone/get them to the hospital fast and my not holding the elevator fucked shit up. And instead of thinking "I helped!" like I was, my brain had to bring up all the possible mistakes I made. AUGH.
Also they're installing limiters on the windows of my dorm today, which sucks, because I had to take the duct tape off my windows because I need the duct tape over the places where the window opens because it's like my windows are practically open I can hear so much city noise and also the seal doesn't work so when we get any heavy windows my window moans. Also I hope that taping my windows isn't against the housing contract also I have a heater in my room that might not supposed to be there because the heater in my room doesn't work and my window (when untaped) leaks warm air. And I've got to do some serious work from now until 5:30pm when I have class for three and a half hours. I have a reading to get done before tomorrow that's truly interesting but long. I've gotta consolidate a 3-day recording-my-technology-use into something that looks fairly decent/vaguely professional for the class at 5:30pm AND write up a contract of what I want to do this term for that same class even though I'm freaking overwhelmed and feel like I can't do anything right now.
Also they're installing limiters on the windows of my dorm today, which sucks, because I had to take the duct tape off my windows because I need the duct tape over the places where the window opens because it's like my windows are practically open I can hear so much city noise and also the seal doesn't work so when we get any heavy windows my window moans. Also I hope that taping my windows isn't against the housing contract also I have a heater in my room that might not supposed to be there because the heater in my room doesn't work and my window (when untaped) leaks warm air. And I've got to do some serious work from now until 5:30pm when I have class for three and a half hours. I have a reading to get done before tomorrow that's truly interesting but long. I've gotta consolidate a 3-day recording-my-technology-use into something that looks fairly decent/vaguely professional for the class at 5:30pm AND write up a contract of what I want to do this term for that same class even though I'm freaking overwhelmed and feel like I can't do anything right now.
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Date: 2019-01-24 04:39 am (UTC)Good luck with your schoolwork and everything. <3