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catharsis_logsMouthguard is helping a lil with my TMJ but I'm also attempting to be good about relaxing my jaw during the day and keeping it that way. I tend to scrunch when I'm stressed or anxious or focusing really hard on a game so I'm trying to be mindful about that.
I'm having a bit of a rough mental health day starting yesterday. Sometimes hopeless gets ahold of me like a terrier with a rat (I'm the rat if it wasn't clear) and I feel more... tender? To bad things happening. I'm also having a rough time wanting to do things but not feeling able to do them. It's my usual angst when it comes to this feeling: everything's bad, the world's dying because of humans, I suck in particular, nothing will get better and in fact will only get worse, and me and my sister won't die of old age.
I'm stressed about the internet bill, I did participate in a phone town hall, and tried to ask a question about the internet stuff but I asked my question too late and didn't get a chance to actually 'go on the air' so to speak which was both frustrating and a relief.
I'm trying to stay in the present moment, that I'm safe and have everything I need, that I have people who love me. I just have to boot the 'for now' off the end of each statement. When I get like this it's like all I can see is the ending of all the good things I have right now.
I'm trying to stay present and mindful. Life is change, change is a part of life, all good things will pass, all bad things will pass, attachment causes fear and suffering but I don't have to let go of everything, I don't have to be Buddha or Jesus, I can't solve the world's problems, I can take what I like and leave the rest, I can do what I can and not feel bad about what I can't, I am more resilient than I know.
I'm having a bit of a rough mental health day starting yesterday. Sometimes hopeless gets ahold of me like a terrier with a rat (I'm the rat if it wasn't clear) and I feel more... tender? To bad things happening. I'm also having a rough time wanting to do things but not feeling able to do them. It's my usual angst when it comes to this feeling: everything's bad, the world's dying because of humans, I suck in particular, nothing will get better and in fact will only get worse, and me and my sister won't die of old age.
I'm stressed about the internet bill, I did participate in a phone town hall, and tried to ask a question about the internet stuff but I asked my question too late and didn't get a chance to actually 'go on the air' so to speak which was both frustrating and a relief.
I'm trying to stay in the present moment, that I'm safe and have everything I need, that I have people who love me. I just have to boot the 'for now' off the end of each statement. When I get like this it's like all I can see is the ending of all the good things I have right now.
I'm trying to stay present and mindful. Life is change, change is a part of life, all good things will pass, all bad things will pass, attachment causes fear and suffering but I don't have to let go of everything, I don't have to be Buddha or Jesus, I can't solve the world's problems, I can take what I like and leave the rest, I can do what I can and not feel bad about what I can't, I am more resilient than I know.
